Suicidal Tendencies

 > weird…

I like to amuse myself by doing strange things or having completely irrelevant conversations..

> Artsy…

I would rather be in the school play than be popular… I love to draw and sing and create beautiful things, I want to be a special effects make-up designer… 

> Creative…

I think of things most people don’t… I can create something out of nothing..

> Sensitive…

If someone I care about says something rude to me, I will get upset.

> Paranoid…

I always think something will go wrong

> ambitious… 

I strive to be successful.

>Understanding…

I have been cheated on, lied to, and put down… but I understood because these people were scared, young, and stupid… I can see things from others point of views.

> Nice..

I will give respect to get respect. I am always kind tot whomever is kind to me.

> fascinated with the night sky and the depths of the universe…

> NOT judgmental..

I will never look upon someone and judge them for what they appear to be, I will always wonder what’s behind the appearance and the smile.

> Generous..

I will give and give and give even if I don’t get anything back, I will give.

> I believe in karma.

> I have never been on a date…

> I want to stay up all night and talk… I want to listen to another ones words and have them listen to mine with interest… I want to talk about real things and fun things.

> I want to be silly and laugh always… I feel like I don’t laugh enough and I need a friend in my life who is exactly like me..

>I can make the best out of anything…

  Simply by taking a walk or going for a picnic on the beach… And I wish to have a friend who is down for anything….

> I want to spend a night on the beach… I want to stare into the sky and dream about the wonders beyond the eye- can- see.

> I want to be remarkably intelligent.

>I could give 2 shits about money and it’s worthless greed that comes with it… yes, it is essential for living, and I do wish to live a stable life, But I will always put the things and ones I love before money, ALWAYS.

> My Life consists of everyone I care about and things I love doing. 

> I would walk a thousand miles for the one I love…

 I would swim through the depths of the sea or fly above the clouds, or walk the delicate shoulder of the highways for one simple kiss of romance.

> I want to make love, not just sex..

  I hate the idea of bending a woman over, and fucking her like a whore… It’s one thing every once in a while. But to me, Eye contact and being close together and breathing heavy is so sexy and romantic.

> I want to take a road trip to vegas for my 21st birthday… I want to visit monuments and view the clear night sky to see all of the stars in a less lighted area.. I want to see the northern lights and the grand canyon. I want to tour the most beautiful places on earth.

> I want to take lots and lots of picture with all the people I love so I can frame it and see put it on my wall.

> I want to laugh until I cry.

>I want to be a part of a life, not an option in it… 

> I wish I knew the truth about everything I always wondered.

> I’m too nice to bring up things that bother or upset me because I don’t want to cause an argument, or hurt feelings. I rather keep it to myself.

>I bottle things up too much.

> I realize how time passes too quickly.

> I hate how corrupt our country is. 

I’m weird, and artsy. I like to laugh at the stupidest things and I will never take life too seriously. I will make the best out of everything and always find something to do. I enjoy sitting down and watching movie after movie after movie, and hope to find a friend who would do that with me without any distractions. I am different. I listen to everything but I love Indie music, Old music, coldplay, frank sinatra, the jersey boys, LCD sound system, Johnny Cash,  The Beetles… I also like A day to Remember and Mayday parade. 

> I don’t have a single celebrity that I look up to… I look at famous people and strive to be better than them, or just as successful as them. This is MY life, and I will not sit her and say, “Well is so and so could do it than so can I,” NO. I WILL do it, whether or not so and so did whatever. Yes, there are some brilliant people that I do enjoy reading about, or watching them act, or listening to their music, but I will never compare myself to them, nor will I say I wanna be like them, I will be better.

> I’m different. And my group of friends is as well. For the very few people I hang out with, they are all different. But we all can hang out because we are weird and different and we can find ways to entertain ourselves. I need to find more people like this. People who don’t need money to have fun, people who can make a great day out of sunny or rainy weather… People who can sit back and enjoy life as it passes instead of worrying so much about what’s going on with everything else. Some people are too worried about making money, that by the time they are 30 they are looking back thinking, “where did my life go” and then responding with, “Oh yeah, I spent my whole life trying to make it, that I forgot to pay attention to the beautiful things that passed my way along the way. I have a career set choice, and a future planned out, But I don’t wake up every morning and think “How will I do it today, how much money will I make today, or where will my life take me today”   I wake up and I think, “I wonder what experiences I can create today.” and I have very few friends who have a mindset similar to mine… And I need more because sometimes I feel very much alone even in a school of 3500 students. 

I am the eyes of the world. I will sit and watch and ponder my thoughts. I will study the way the human mind works, what causes people to say and do certain things and what factors lie behind that and further. I will watch the good grow evil and the evil turn good. I will watch the hopeless faces of today continue to be busy until tomorrow. And I will ask myself why no one stops, looks around, and is thankful for what we are surrounded by and how it exists. I will learn from these people, and grow from them. I will teach myself never to become so blind to life and to always have an open creative mind.

I wish to find myself a friend exactly like me… But I am still convinced such a friend does not exist. So I will continue to grow and learn and teach and nurture the ones I care for. But I will not judge those who do not stop to view the sunset…. I will only respect them for it because with an eye being able to see the beauty, You can also view the ugly… Those who can not see beauty, will not understand the ugly and will be unknowing to the secretes that revolve around our planet. Knowing too much can be rather depressing, but making the best of it can begin an entire separate world.